Ladiers and gentlefellas~


HOPEFULLY this march you will hear a very well put together and highly anticipated album hit the shelves; we were dead before the ship even sank Modest Mouse.

about 2 weeks ago a friend in the music biz sent me a leaked copy and i think it shall live up to hipe. reminds me of some of the early Mouse albums which i thought was long and dead..

SO. this march 20th 2007, put it on your calendars to pick it up, and enjoi~!


hope everyone is well.

  So i would like to propose a question to the world:     
 What has become of real life, and may i ask what is it?

lets make a mock of a typical day for many, myself included and examine it:

Alarm goes off, gotta wake up, youve got a busy day ahead of you! You throw on some clothes that you've dubbed acceptable to wear outside in public. Appearance is the most important thing in our society. Dont believe me? Well, look at any commercial having to do with appearance in any way. Your wrong, this is the way your supposed to look, think, act, feel, and be. Thats the beauty of our world, improvements are never an option only a necessity. 
What would you be if you didnt fit in?

         Next, you grab your cell phone in hopes that during the night someone has called/texted/beemed you for some reason or another. Sadly this form of communication has now become an essential part of our day to day, has your cell phone ever been lost or died and you basically couldnt funtion without it? yes, its the most important device you own friends.  Now  its off to the computer, who knows what messages and pokes lay waiting in the depths of  facebook and Myspace. This is truely most important and requires its subscribers to obsessively check multiple times a day as if its prayer to religion. 

        Now its time to say goodbye to your family/roomates/spouses, your big day is about to begin, remember that you have a schedule to uphold. You walk outside and wave to your next door neighbor who you have no idea what his full name is, only that its Tom and his wife is Karen with a K, dont forget that. Looks like Tom has recently installed a sprinkler system, hmm? Maybe thats why his grass is so green..? looks like im going to need to up-grade or everyones opinion of me will down-grade, cant have it. All the homes in your neighborhood look exactly the same, but yours is different somehow, you swear it is. Dont worry the difference is quite apparent. Amongst your neighborhood lies 700 other houses and families that all call "Mongolian Estates" home. Gotta love it though, its worth every single penny of debt that its caused you.
i think?

    As you walk to your car, thoughts of a bigger/better/fancier vehicle intrude, but dont worry, Dealerships and car loans can fix all these problems. As you cruise down the road, you notice all the hundreds of establishments from food to salons all busy busy in taking care of our important tasks that we must fufill each day. You come to a red light and take note of who is stopped around you. To your left is a girl not older than 18 in a brand new BMW, windows down, music blarring and shes starring at the light with anxious eyes for it to hit green. Shes beautiful, but fat chance pal, she has an agenda to attend to, no time for you. To your right is a  middle-aged woman with a fake smile on her face talking on her cell phone and waving at something having to do with her conversation. Shes rolling high class in her extremely large H2 Hummer with the 20 inch rims that now comes as an option with these lovely Earth friendly vehicles. Remeber folks, expense and excess does not matter here, its all about appearance. NEVER forget these rules that someday will govern your very life. 

    Your stomach growls with hunger, so you decide to get something quick before class. Your options are limited to about 15 different fast food joints all having multiple locations within a ten mile radius. You choose one, walk in, and are welcomed from a girl not much older than yourself blurting out something of this nature: "Hello, welcome to....have you tried our new...." Its obvious and sad at the same time, that her training consisted on memorizing this line to ploy at every sap that walks under the Golden Arches. You order and an assembly line in back creates a meal in under 5 minutes. Your  now looking at some of the finest ingredients possible, most of which consisting of names  too hard to pronounce. Not to mention that your personal health is the highest concern here. I hope i dont get too fat from this... That only means im going to have to hit the tredmill at Aspen Gym. No one wants a fatty around, this appearance isnt acceptable by anyones standards these days.

      Back on the road again. The Radio is informing its listeners of a 5 car pile-up along I-44. wrecks = time wasted in traffic and no one needs this! "We here at the state highway patrol are truely sorry for holding up everyones schedules while we clean up the damage and pointless death that occured here, roadways will be back to normal shortly
Drive safe!"

     Ahh, now you've made it finally to your destination, college campus. You park amongst 1,232,435 million other cars in a sea of pavement. Everyones the same, Ipod in ears, as disconnected from the world as the next guy. Walking briskly to your class, you find a seat among the other people, all around your age shooting for the same goal, that degree. See, a degree in our society enables a person to have a have a secure job, have a secure way of life,
 and have a secure retirement in 45 years and counting.
you hope... 

    Returning home, you walk in to find the television tuned to the 5-alive News Team at 5 o'clock where some man named Chip Sparkly speaks of death and crime as if its routine in your beautiful city. Smile is always across his face, he's as fake as the life he reports about. 

     Dinnertime is here, meaning its time to go eat out. Your options are endless, but expect more smiles and more fakes expecting very large tips for busting their asses for you good sir. You dress nice, even though your going to Chili's, remember what i said; Appearance is most important card in the hand of life. 

     Coming home, you think about all that you've accomplished and feel proud. Great, because tomarrow is a big day filled with more important tasks that you must tackle! Don't forget tomarrow is causal dress day at your job, dont come dressed differently, that would be standing out...sleep well world....


We walk amongst brilliant human beings every day, we are all.
I would say that we are more closely related to Robots than we are Apes
what ever happened to our interaction between our earth and us? i dont see squirrels building shopping complexes and expecting us to get used to it or perish. We've lost touch with the reality that we've been given a perfect world, and that we have a purpose larger than ourselves and our agendas. Think about it; Just the right amount of gases allows us to survive. Just the right distance away from the sun allows us to thrive. Just the right situations allows for losing touch with it all and living lives that are meaningless and truely rediculous. I dont know what the "right" answer is, or how its ever going to change, but when you truely stop to look at life around us, is this why we're here? 
 Its all about us, and everything else can kiss our asses, welcome to the American Dream.

I cant Imagine a world in which the concept of Me, Myself and I wasnt at the center of every action

can you? 

~Hello Little Darlings ~
©
seeing that my last entry was dated in the mid 1800’s, I Apologize severely. So where to start? Life has been…life. Its Had its moments that seem good, can be good, but then becomes no good. Frustrations are gaining the high ground and It’s causing a lot of hurt for this boy. The problem doesn’t seem to have an end or to making me happier, which was its intent, so I feel stuck. Things need to be carefree & happy yet they‘ve wandered.

Today I started work at my new jobbb. I now am a Bus Fellow at Lottenville’s here in Edmond. The Money seems good and I’m hoping that new-ness settles and I start looking at it, not as a job, but as a get-away paid.

ACT was an experience this morning. I feel I did alright, we shall see soon enough now won’t we?

Vital dates for your Calendar:
October 31^st-------Halloweeeen
November 1^st----my little birthday
December 25^th----Christmas Day

 you would need those, people often forget such non-represented holidays such as those 3 amigos.

The time has come little Darlings to call this a night. Goodnight my Sunlight’s

        ©   B      E      N  ©

[	mood	|	"God damit HERB!"	]
[	music	|	radio indie pop	]

a text message i sent to too many folks while being rediculous
 and assuming i was humorous. ha:::

"jonathon, you know we cant go on like this..
For god sake's im all FLUZZIED out,
 ..what more bitch?.?."

god damn i apologize....

love-
John Doe Prentiss

Dear You,

So you hang up the phone.....
I just want to ask what you want to get out of this?  "You wait for me to Apologize, for something that i didnt even say.  _                                           
well.                     ... Keep waiting....


.                                         those "i'm sorry" everydays are done.

(%)The Term APOLOGY comes when its needed, not when you want to hear me tell you that your right.  I think you like to hear me Deminer myself by saying it.  thats truely sad and a tad rude.

*it makes me feel like shit to know that you think im such an inconsiderate jerk, but really i care way too much

I dont know what your fucking deal is, but ive taken too much
_          . fix it or  i'll see you August 18th.

this is where you hate me and never look at it from my perspective, true? think about it, think about you and the whole situation, not including this fight, the whole picture my dear.

Ben <3

"so longing to make this a fool proof plan"

~ Greetings Reality VS. Life ~          

so very often i have turned from you, only to run into you and know that it was  right the first time? why? why cant things just make themselves just equate out?
this, my readers, is a ever-present figure of failure in my life currently. Many instances have plagued me lately with the problem that basically,  life catches up to me and wants control. I try to make a dreamworld that involves none of the problems, but yet all the victums of the day to day.
how foolish.
the term life is the beauty that appears to us at moments that are unforgetable. a conversation which ended hatred,  a moonlit lake in silence,  a sunset ending a timeless summer night,  catching the eye of the one you love and seeing that worry is not an issue, a butterfly on your taking a landing upon your palm , or a gust of wind making time stand still.
Life is changing all around us, and sometimes it makes your normal  a memory of the past, and that is Reality. I look back and say "where did i go, where did that go? and wonder if someone has gone through these years of growing up not drawn in to the world of change. Peter Pan was right when he thrived to live in Neverland forever.  "no one ever grows up there, nothing ever has to  make changes". How amazing could that possibly be? To freeze a time in life that you know your heart wants to hold onto and have that never change?
  Reality is a bitch, and it will face you sooner or later, good or bad.
*I write this entry to myself, so if your confused, its basically a reminder. *
The Middleground, that is what we are left to face. It's not a path you can take either way like a fork in the road, but both are truely ever-present every day. You must go out and expect that beauty  will surface or settle for the stark face of reality.  Expect them both.  I hate it, but then where would you be without it?

if you agree that life VS. reality is bullshit, then please sign here:

name:______________________________________                                 Benj <3

 

there‘s a Min your Mailbox!!!

Have not updated in awhile, so now I am.
+ School is almost done
+ I won advanced screening tickets for Star Wars 2night
+ I don’t have a dunk jam punk rock cut
+ summer = sleep fiends and fun
+ Fiends Graduating
+ an amazing concert, Quartz and film endeavors via summer

___NMNM___
- certain people are being fucks. Bottom line
- I keep getting more letters about how intense Quartz will me, and that I shouldn’t fuck it up
- Peanut my dog is dying and had to be carried to the doctor in a basket
- that feeling that lifes going wayy to fast
- Fiends Graduating
- people are hiding secrets and trying to avoid them by being distant
- miss too many Michigan lovers and baby dolls, wishing they were here to make it all perrrfect.

So those are the Positives and Negatives. I want some comments people on what I’m going to do with you this summer when we hang out in detail.

_______Bennnjj

___________The Flight of Airplanes

hello Darlings!

So I have been feeling like shit this entire week, blah.
Schools is really ridiculous. Yeah amen.

Tomarrow Night: THE SHINS! I have a date, its all set.
Fun? You bet your last ass it will.

So here’s a really cute picture of my date Heather and I before
Prom. Well I think its cute at least. Night loves!


Wink * my boy * Wink